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Sonia, At the top right of screen are 3 bars and that opens up a menu. Again top right you will see a bell, envelope and warning triangle. Click on envelope and select compose new. You will be able to select a user and add message. You are still a new user so the function may not yet be showing but I don’t have access to tell that. Hope that helps. Best wishes.

Thank you for being on here and the invaluable support you have given to so many. Very best wishes for the future.

I am glad you are getting the help you need. Your partner will be experiencing trauma of discovery and it won’t matter if your addiction is recognised or not, as she will be processing the revelations in different ways. Below is partner’s journey and may be helpful blog to read. https://thelaurelcentre.co.uk/blog/the-partners-journey-through-sex-addiction-discovery/

I am not a trained professional but from experience you can’t stop the thoughts. It’s what follows that you can control and if you are spending time you don’t have dwelling on the thoughts and amplify them towards planning actions then you are in danger of “acting out” your fantasy with bad outcomes. So I would look at the resources on here and the blogs and see if there are patterns. I actually think that this is an on topic discussion as it is very pertinent to us all. Thanks for sharing and hope this helps

It certainly sounds as if you are making a determined effort this time and so pleased to here that you are finding the course helpful. This is a great place to share and if that helps you even better. You are in our thoughts. All the very best to you.

Hi Carole, Welcome to the forum. Reading your story I can tell you are a caring and sensitive person. You are certainly not naïve or a fool; especially as addiction is incredibly complex, at multiple levels and emotions. In fact there are no black and white answers; however there is a lot of good advice and support contained within the forum. In addition if you have not found this series of blogs yet, I would recommend a read and it it also gives additional links to further support for you. Sex Addiction : a guide for couples : do I stay or leave? | The Laurel Centre

👋 Hi Dan44. Welcome to the forum. I do hope you found the above post helpful. Firefly

I think mid journey (recovery) is always so very hard and dwelling on the shame is often triggering and can easily move you back to past acting out behaviour, which is not what you want to do; but addiction is such that it’s easy to relapse. Try and focus on the good things each day, be supportive of your partner but not out of guilt. She may never get over the betrayal but it sounds as though she is still there so that’s positive. You can’t fix the past. Eventually you will find that you are on a new and better journey.

So pleased you have not acted out for over a year. I am neither a health professional or a therapist but have experienced disturbing dreams such as you mention that I have woken up from in distress. I found sometimes the dreams were worse thoughts than any of the acting out I had done previously. I have realised over time I cannot control my thoughts (especially when asleep), but the important thing I found is not to dwell on the thoughts (because some might have felt good!); and certainly don't allow them to start thinking about acting out due to the shame! You certainly don't want to go back on that merry go round! You can't make the dreams stop but as you get further along the road of recovery they will reduce and I now can't recall the last time I had such a dream. I do hope that helps.

Hi. First step is making this post so well done. There are male therapists and you can do face to face on Zoom. Best wishes 🙏🏻

Hi. I didn't get any further as no replies till your enquiry. Let me know how you get on with S-Anon. Best wishes. Graham

Hi, I wrote a reply last night but due to maintenance it was lost so my comprehensive response was lost... Any way I will try again with a shorter reply to start and say that you have made the hardest step which is to admit to yourself you have an addiction and that you need help. Unfortunately I did not do this and resulted in it being forced upon me. I will pull together a few useful blogs and posts that you might have found already. In the mean time I think it might help to look at the following link and quantify how much impact your SA is having on your life. Am I a Sex Addict? | The Laurel Centre I would ask you to also consider if the weekly porn is a subset and you are actually relapsing 52 times a year. Anyway there is plenty of help and many who are or have been through exactly the same and I wish you well. Firefly

Thank you so much for sharing your painful journey with us. I am so glad you have been able to share this and that you are getting help. You are not alone and as you read other peoples experiences you will see the addictive pattern, especially the need to escalate the activity as in your own words “it got more and more excessive that I started to look elsewhere again” A drug addict generally does not start off with Heroin and dirty needles to get their numbing fix. Each day is a new day and unfortunately there are no quick fixes, but building up a number of coping / soothing strategies really helps. I am so glad you have been able to post. Best wishes

Thank you Marley for this very honest post. This is a poignant reminder to all of us who have lost out through addiction. It is also a reminder to everyone to get help early before our cognitive distortions push our loved ones away. I do hope that you have NOT spiraled into more acting out as a result of the latest shame and HAVE been able to reach out and get help for yourself. There is much resource available for you. You are in my thoughts at this difficult time.

Thank you for posting this. It is so easy to be so ashamed that you get as you say "Stuck in the cycle" and you feel you can't even tell your therapist or support network. However the truth is you can't stop the triggers or thoughts entering your head. There will be many people reading this who have been (I certainly have) in your situation. The danger is that in acting out (slipping / relapsing) as you say, coupled with many sites knowing and feeding your addiction you are in danger of spiraling back to 2019/20!! I find that by finding alternative ways of dealing with triggers has helped me minimise the slips and the subsequent potential to spiral; which is why I wrote this post which you might find useful. Numbing vs. Soothing - Success Stories - Paulahall UK Sex addiction forum However I would get in touch with your therapist again as they will know your story and help put short term strategies in place; or contact one. As you know you cannot fix this on your own. I hope this helps. Firefly