Hi, i can see its been a while since anyone posted but i found this thread and its nice to know im not alone. Hope to find some support on here or online.
I realised my husband has a porn addiction just recently but had suspected it for a while, which also includes his logging into chat rooms at any time of the day to ask women about masturbation. His porn viewing is everyday and includes his compulsive searching for literally anything to do with female masturbation. This addiction has been going on for the whole of our 10 year marriage and we have 2 children together. I recently confronted him with evidence i had found of a cyber affair he had been having for over 2 years, which included sexting and facetime sex plus he sent her a vibrator in the post (i actually ended up speaking to her after making contact). The affair ended however i have discovered that he is continuing to try to keep in touch with females from the chat room on skype etc. Im past the heartbreak of it but i realise things wont change as he doesn’t think he needs any help. I havent told him i know hes still doing it.
I stay with him as it would be disastrous for our kids if we separated and its a complex situation with finances too. He is a family man and is a good dad and husband most of the time, but when i’ve recently brought up about my concerns that he is detached or not showing me as much affection he isnt always validating and goes on the defensive etc so ive given up. I realise he does have demons, has low self esteem/depression and a whole troubled past of trauma in his childhood that ive been aware of since forever. However hes always managed to hide this double life from me up until now. I had to find out what i was dealing with so i snooped. He doesnt meet with anyone (he pretends to be much younger online anyway) so i do believe this is literally just online. However it has impacted areas of his life and i feel at a loss.
Thanks for reading.